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Sabado, Agosto 25, 2012

MUTE


“Mute’’
            “blag, blag, blag”. The steps are coming into my way. The tiny ray of light strips the shadow as it passes the hole. His laughter binds with the cold breeze of the night that hid me at the corner of my closet. I can smell the burning coals from hell once again. I want to scream, to cry but I can’t. I can’t...
            The fragrance of coconut oil welcomes me as I entered our Kubo. Inang greets me with her warm smile as she pats the sweetened rice in the plate. She harmoniously sprinkles the coconut residue at the top of it as I silently watch her. It is my birthday; every year she prepares for my birthday, even though we don’t have much to serve, as long as we are together. Our home will be filled again by tickling laughter and infinite joy every time Itang comically sings there theme song and he dances with us out of the beat. The melody of happiness echoed in our hearts. But sudden news breaks the rhythm of enthusiasm inside me and turns into terrifying noise, an unbearable noise. Itang accidentally slipped-off at the top of the coconut tree. He loosed his grip while reaching a bulk of coconut beside him. He just wanted to bring home a better meal for the day but the earth asks his breath for the payment.
            Our Kubo is not a Home anymore; it is just a shelter for Inang and me. I never saw her smiles once again. She just buries herself with solitude and sadness that remain with us. One night, a stranger knocks in our door. As we open our door to welcome him we also open our life for him. He is my new father; he is part of our new family. He brings back the smile into Inang’s face; he took all the responsibilities that a good head of a family must have. He rises before the dawn and aids us to the household chores. He became an epitome of an excellent father to me in front of everyone.
 He builds a new Home for the three of us and colors our life that faded when Itang died. But slowly he stains my haven into a dark space and wraths the four-corners of my asylum. He painted a nightmare inside me. Every night he steps into my room and drowns my body with his immensity. He tears my garments that guards me from bareness and abducts my innocence. His body collides into mine and dig wounds in my heart. His eyes linger my serenity and breaks my virginity. He punches my body every time I resist but my spirit is the one who feel the pain, infinite pain that scratches my character; the pain that stitches hell in my withered morality and battered femininity; the pain that not just happen once but plenty of times; the pain that no one can heal; The pain that Inang blindly defy and helplessly ceases.
“blag, blag, blag”, the shallow crisp of a heavy step; The sound of fear that covers my lips; The clamor of agony that suffocates my soul; the darkness of the night that deflates my hope. My voice can no longer reach the right pitch of life. My yell descends as time running away. He will kill me too… 

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